How could a loving God take my baby away from me?

I lost my son, Brayden at 38 weeks. His cause of death is still unknown. I went into the hospital on August 2nd due to his decreased movements. The doctors were able to find a faint heartbeat and told me they had a chance to do an emergency C section, but they chose not to.

I lost my son that day because of their decision.

Brayden was my first and only child. At the beginning of his death, I felt hopeless. I blamed God. I was angry, frustrated, and confused.

How could a loving God take my baby away from me?

I grew him in my womb for 9 months to have him taken away from me.

What was God saying to me?

Did I do something wrong to offend him?

I didn’t want to pray, watch church, or have anyone talk to me about God until about 2 months ago. I learned that I cannot harden my heart towards God. There is purpose in my pain. In due time, I will know the reason behind Brayden’s death, but until then I will continue to put my faith and trust in him.

Click here to read more of our blogs about seeing God's hand through baby loss. This blog was written by Brandy in Dallas, Texas. She is the mother of Brayden.